Who Was I?

Hello wanderer, I go by the aliases CASXULS and LONGLOSTCASTLE, either works. What I create is experimental, honest, and personal in a way nothing else I’ve done has matched. Music was my starting point, but it was never meant to stay contained there. Film, literature, the occult, and game development have always been part of the same vision, all feeding into one larger world I’m building over time. CASXULS, pronounced castles, as well as my brand and side project LONGLOSTCASTLE, began in California in late 2020 as an experimental design with no real boundaries, and that approach has stayed consistent ever since. The sound and overall direction move freely through metal, hip hop, rock, and indie, into darker spaces like medieval ambient, harsh noise, meditative sound, depressive tones, and even moments of pop and eerie spoken word when it fits. It pulls from obscure underground artists, psychological horror games, and childhood visuals, all filtered through something more introspective and personal. I’m deeply involved in every part of the process and willing to learn whatever is necessary to bring an idea to life. Most of what I make is produced entirely on my own, built from the ground up to reflect the exact sounds, visuals, and concepts I’ve always wanted to experience myself through "my dream albums". Over time, this has extended beyond music into short experimental films and dark & surreal video pieces released under the name Finiharios, some of which feel like they belong somewhere hidden or not meant to be found at all, with plans for larger works and full length films in the future. Everything connects back into the same space, whether it’s sound, visuals, or something interactive, all tied together under LONGLOSTCASTLE as an independent label and creative outlet. I’ve released multiple albums, EPs, and demos this way while remaining completely independent and operating with a small following. I’m not chasing attention or fame with any of this and in fact want exactly the opposite, attention to me doesn't sound all that fun, at least where I am currently in life. I’ve been creating this art for over five years now with very little to no recognition. As long as the work exists, and someone out there can experience it or even feel something from it the same way I’ve always been affected by my favorite artists of all mediums so far, that’s enough. This isn’t about fitting into a scene or following trends, it’s about documenting a process, pushing ideas to my liking, and building something real in a time where most things feel artificial. I feel that most people probably won't understand or care to explore it all and that is perfectly okay and expected however I do try my best to make interesting things in all fields of interests so if you don't fully vibe or associate with the darker more edgy styles, you may appreciate the other styles I tend to lean in. If you don't like that either then hey, you may find something better in my side project albums with the ambient works or even just avoid the music entirely and focus on the visual aspect of my workings. Any option is totally up to you and I will never push my interests or force them upon anyone. Everything I put out and create is subject to change and that shows over time as I am still growing up and maybe not fully resinating with older works i've created in the past. But then again, you might be.. The only constant for me is the need to keep making something honest, no matter where it ends up or how many people I end up offending along the way ;)

Center Belief

It seems that nearly all beliefs and "spiritual connections" looked upon today in the modern age we live in are followed by almost what seems like mindless decisions made by those who chose to associate with it. The argument can always be made that there are goods and bads of each group and while that is very true, it also seems that most people have absolutely zero knowledge on what it is they are taking part in to even begin with. All it really takes now to get people on board with whatever meaningless or meaningful philosphies you've surrounded yourself with is by taking part in a particular niche (artists/musicians/etc. seem to be the most popular in the modern age) and gathering any amount of attention even small. It is then that if you play your cards even slightly correct, you will then recieve constant and obsessive energy from those who even like you a tiny bit. Once your in and the hype starts building up around your name or product it is then that the mindless sheep-like herd will now be attached to you, whether for short or long-term is up to you in those moments leading forward. Some using this power for good and others not so much, it's only those who give these people attention in the first place allowing these individuals to feel like gods or goddesses for having little to no life meaning or purpose are the ones to blame. This all ties into the belief that humans for the MOST part are nothing more than simple jungle monkeys led on by whatever makes them feel better in the short term. Rather than research, learn, evolve, and find out the hard answers yourself, they mostly rely on having others putting in the effort just to apply these same values to their own unique lives and blame others and themselves when the outcome doesnt come out the same way. We are all unique therefore no two people in this universe could ever possibly have the same exact thoughts and ideals as another to a full 100% accuracy. Judging others for finding other topics to be more or less important then putting them down for having a simply different opinion and considering them to be your enemy for such is no more than foolish slave-like mentality bestowed upon you all by the higher ups who get horny for this behavior, and really you're no better. The world could and most definitely is capable of improving in almost every way possible, if only we stopped purchasing into high out of reach bullshit prices and feeding into artificial drama shown only by biased one perspective puppets, we could demand a whole lot more. Unfortunately, most people will just not care nor even bother working alongside you no matter who's team they say they are apart of. Sadly enough we also have to share the same oxygen as these wastes of space. It is clear more than ever before that we live in the end of times and most important and harmful age of deception and that it will only become worse from here. Bring yourself and resort back to simpler times, grow your own crops, learn those difficult skills yourself, get off the fucking internet for once, learn new languages and grammar, educate yourselves (and that doesn't have to only mean go back to school) i mean truly, educate yourself for life by actually living it and doing new things on regular occasion. Begin families to raise your own children, if you decide to have them that is. Simply be as a human was meant to be. This will take away all the power the higher up officials have been leeching and raping us of these many many previous decades. Revolting primal apes is what will become our new performing standard here very soon, it's already started happening in many countries of the world so far, but we can reverse this damage and end the plague ridden mindset as one if we so choose. You know it as well as I do, this most likely isn’t the life you envisioned for yourself at this age, old or young, it could’ve been different.. People say “oh, it could always be worse!” and while that is most definitely true, at the same time, it can most certainly always be better. Everything I believe and have ever believed in is subject to change, just because I think now that most people don't really have any sense of common urgency or decency, this doesn't mean my mindset on this won't change or slightly alter later on in life. I could be wrong about 99% of what it is I take part in so far and I am totally open to that possibility, obviously I'd like to have some faith and confidence that my reasoning behind certain motives is justified and within reason, again.. I could be wrong, and so could you, I am no better than anyone and neither are you. You will also most likely be hated and surrounded by mobs of angry pretentious nobody's who have nothing better to do in life than complain for simply having an opinion that goes against the common grain or current trends. Be brutally honest and fully yourself no matter what, don't allow them to make you feel as if you are wrong if it's something you so truly and fully believe in. Even I myself, CASXULS, might have differing opinions or beliefs than you, and that is totally okay. I even find that idea to be more interesting than agreeing on every single thing to begin with (which isn't even possible in the first place because again, we have completely different lives.) Because you have something that I currently don't or vice versa, perhaps you can teach me something brand new or open my eyes to a side of the story I've never even considered fully in the first place for a certain belief or stance. Political or emotional, IT IS OKAY to disagree with your peers. Teach one another, find new options, listen and learn even if you don't fully like the person, hear them out. There is ALWAYS common ground, even with your worst enemy there always be something you both can agree upon if you put in enough effort to find it. Be yourself and nothing but, you are alive here now reading this for a reason, whatever the reason is, it's completely up to you to make sense of and if other's don't care to at least try to understand it, then they simply are not your people, drop them and move on, or stay in the same bullshit and suffer. Your life, your move, your choice.. Mar/19/2026